I have found that I am a sufferer of seasonal depression. No matter how good my outlook, once the fall hits I become blue. the other week I found myself thing (again) that this could be my last fall, last holiday season. I am not supposed to do that!! Today I saw my primary (back to seeing Dr Terry) and he is upping my antidepressants for this season. We will see how that goes! I am hopeful! He said that considering everything, I am doing very well. He was pleasantly surprised that things are going so well for me!
I also got my new pump!!! Tuesday I had a nurse come train me from Denver on this new CADD-MS 3 pump! It is so tiny!! The size of a small cell phone! Mom and Dan are relieved that the cord is shorter. They were always freaking about the other one getting caught on things. Now that this one straps to my belt or pocket, I don't need a long cord to account for movement. It is slightly water resistant, so I am not attached to the wall when I shower (YES!!!) and I can play in the bumper boats without fail!! Next summer I see a day of bumper boats and mini golf!!!
There was a bit of a freak out incident though... Because of differences between the pumps, the nurse had to empty, flush, then prime my line with the new concentration of medicine. Well, she gave me a bit too much, so I had an overdose. Luckily it was just a tiny bit too much, so the reaction only lasted like an hour. But it was an hour spent remembering what it was like to start the medication. It did remind me of how much better I really am doing. When I started, those side effects were acceptable, better even! Now I didn't want anything to do with them!! So I guess I needed reminding that I am a LOT better!
